Wow its been a pretty long time since I've even been on xanga.... Its weird to look back and read my earlier entries... although they may mean nothing to pretty much everyone else.... they meant something to me. I was able to relive those moments, remember what was going through my head during those times.  It was like going to the past and listening to the old me talk... listening to the person I was then ramble on about what she felt at that time was worthy enough to be posted.  Its just weird traveling through the past. In a way I kind of miss it. Things now seem to be much easier then even though at the time I was living them they were anything but.  Well thats all from me. Later.

Hey Guys!! 

So I finally figured out how to put a music video on my site.  THANKS CHELSEA!! It took me forever but I finally figured it out!  However, you have to scroll down to see it cause I haven't figured out how to make it go to the top of the page.

I love this song because i can so relate.  Even with the people watching like the family was on display... nothing a secret.... everyone knowing their business... thats exactly how i felt during the whole trial with my parents divorce. I hated everyone knowing, I hated my friends knowing.

*sigh*.... well here are the lyrics:

I wait for the postman
To bring me a letter
And I wait for the good Lord
To make me feel better
And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders
Family in crisis that only grows older
Why'd you have to go?
Why'd you have to go?
Why'd you have to go?

Daughter to father
Daughter to father
I am broken, but I am hoping
Daughter to father
Daughter to father
I am crying, a part of me's dying
and these are
These are the confessions
Of a broken heart

And I wear all your old clothes
Your polo sweater
I dream of another you
One who would never, never
Leave me alone
To pick up the pieces
Daddy to hold me
That's what I needed
So why'd you have to go?
Why'd you have to go?
Why'd you have to go?

Daughter to father
Daughter to father
I don't know you, but I still want to
Daughter to father
Daughter to father
Tell me the truth
Did you ever love me?
'Cuz these are, these are,
the confessions
Of a broken heart
Of a broken heart

I love you
I love you
I love you
I, I love you...

Daughter to father
Daughter to father
I don't know you, but I still want to
Daughter to father
Daughter to father
Tell me the truth
Did you ever love me?
Did you ever love me?
These are
The confessions
Of a broken heart

Oh.... yeah
And I wait for the postman
To bring me a letter.

Ok here I go. This update is for you woo! lol.

My brother came down this weekend!! He brought his wife too! They've been married for 5 years and this was the first time I met her. She's pretty cool.Unfortunately they were only able to stay 2 days. So that part wasn't so cool.

Its weird how things can change over time.  How people change. Hmm... lol don't where that came from... just thinking I guess.

Oh snap I gotta go.  I have lots of homework! Later!

No school today. Excited at first?..... Heck yes. Now?...... Heck no. Now we don't have school til friday.  I mean one day is nice but three days is just crazy. I'm going to be way behind especially with marching band! We have a competition october first and we don't even have half our show on the field. Its going to be interesting to say the least. But yes now I am stuck at home ALL day which really wouldn't be that bad if my mother wasn't going to be home ALL day with me and those of you who know my mother i mean really know her know this isn't going to be easy. 

Well enough about that. I got to see CHELSEA a couple weeks ago!!! It was awesome! I MISS YOU CHELSEA!!!   lol.

I'm gonna go ahead and go. Later!